ohhh my gosh

yes, same a the title above, ohhh my gosh, i had leve my blog for 4 months. I admit tat i m lazy to update my blog, but i have to do it at least 4 months once, so tat blogger doesn't block me.

Let hav a fast review, 4 months ago,ohh yaa, i m still in no where, i have lost the direction of my future, i have no idea on everything just thinking of wat to do in my future, emo for quite a long time, sleepless, insomia,been very rude, started to smoke for the only half of the cigerette which is my only start n the only end of it, and bla bla bla. this is life, isn't it?

well when time go on, i m getting more mature and older as well. so as time go on, i stsarted to explore more bout life, i had found out wat suit me n wat does not.

currently i m having my wonderful holidays, nothing much happen in my holidays, most of the time i used up to help my mum for my new house. BUT i hav discover tat piloting suit me, yaya i noe pilot couse is damn damn expensive, and my family cant even affort me to do it, but it just a dream. every1 has dream.

christmas is over n new year is coming, i take tis advantage to wish every1 merry belated christmas n happy new year. 2009 happen alot of things, no matter gud or bad, happy or sad, hopefully 2010 will b a better year for every1. GUD LUCK
THAT ALL for the last post of 2009, bye 2009 n welcome 2010.

continue

lots of thing pass through my mind in the midnight , as wat i noe myelf, i m a person who like to think when i hav ntg to do...

1 thing to share wit u all is , i will start learn something of computer n handphone..
i will learn how to reformat a computer when i hav extra time n handphone softwares..beside tat , i will learn hw to use photoshop, zhi heng will teach me when there is a time between 2 of us...
i will go bak toward cars stuff too....
i will check all the cars price list, model, performance , etc...

i m going to move to a double story house in pandan indah...
i will draw something n my room, and my mum is not so suitable to shift things, so wo is willing to help me , pls come forwards....probably will move on the november after the painting n renovation done.. and there will b a open house, pls come i will inform u guys(gabrians)...

down down down

let's see.... it is 4.40 am. What m i doing here? firstly is the oldtown hazelnut coffee. i drank it when i m watching you got serve..it is good to drink sumthing and hav some snack while watching movie....

within tis 2 weeks many thing happen...
firstly, the main thing is tat my mum is going for a by pass on this friday at melaka due to her blood vessel blockage in the left main artery. after all the test( blood test, stress test, angrogram test ect....) it show tat is a bad sign. doctor said tat my mum is a special case. she is very healthy, all the test show tat my mum couldn't hav tis blockage. But anyway, it is better to do a by pass, as doctor advice. the risk of the surgery is just 2%, but if my mum refuse to do the surgery, she is taking a risk of 50% of her life. there is no other choice, so the only thing is go for a surgery, it is a major operation which take bout 4 to 5 hours.

secondly, my grandfather pass away tis morning. To me it is a gud new due to he is a problem maker, he leave the family of 2 sons and 3 daughters to his wife( my grandmum) and married another woman. all the while he is giving my dad family alot of problem eventhough he married another woman. he like to gamble, i still remember tat when i was still a small kid, he owe those ah loong quite a number of money and he refuse to paid them bak, at the end my dad family hav to pay for him. few months ago, he was admitted to hkm due to cancer, when he was still lying on the hospital bed, he still can try to ask my father for money to start a small business by selling newspaper. it's all bullshit, in his mind only money.

thirdly,
i m going bak to the dance floor.... it is a bad news to me, popping class cancelled due to lack of ppl. No 1 will guide us for popping n locking anymore accept there is some1 who 1 2 learn popping n locking. if there are 6ppls 1 2 learn popping n locking, the class will reopen.pls any1....

but there is some gud thing for me ....
i ponteng almost 1 week to take care of my mum coz she might hav a sudden attack...

attention, i m going to thiland bangkok by next month during hari raya time... any1 who nid my help to buy tshirt or other stuff, giv me a call....

last but not least, school holidays coming, i might use half of the holidays in melaka but i will enjoy it...
some resolutions for myself, write it in the blog to remind me, myself

:
1.keep fit, on diet(jogging at least 3 times a week, fitness training 6 times a week)
2.good boyz, next year battle ground
3. latin partner(wanted no experience necessary)
4. same money
5. next year sabah trip( currently i hav 7 ppls going, all are good boyz members)
6. time managment dummies( finish this book b4 the scl holidays)
7. in a relationship(virgin but no experience necessary)
8.improve my english( grammar n vocab)
9. stpm( at least c in all subjs)
10. improve all my dancing skills
11. set a time table for my self
12. i must do it, may god bless me...

ya i forgoten something, the melaka latin dancespot copetition. i'm in the finalist6 in asean category.. for newcomer, 1st time compete, tis is a very gud start.Proud of myself...

gud nite....
zhen hua(i changed my name)

Fall Down

Pls dont push people into the road side n try to b a good person to get him up again.. it is too late.. once the person is dissapointed to u , u r difficult to get bak their attention..

mistake found

Finally i heard bout my mistake from the instructor, but honestly, it is too late, do u tink i can solve all the prob by tis few days???

i take 3 months to prepare tis competition, eventhough my partner is lazy to practise, but i m still continue to practise whenever i hav free time, u all(instructors) are there too, but y dun u all pick my mistake earlier, so that i got time to solve the prob. Witout partner u all cant see my mistake ke ??

However, i don't tink tat i will take action in my mistake due to i reli dissapointed to my partner. when i dance wit u i doesn't enjoy at all after i noe ur laziness. In my mind i will remember to person, 1 is my latin partner who coz me to lost lots of my time and come bak wit ntg, n second 1 is badri, i will remember him in my whole life, who coz the gabrians cheer lost in the competition n bla bla bla...

But anyway i got to thx 2 of you, remind me to make a better decision before i do anything , choose the right person to get involve..

stressful, under pressure

Reli stressful nowaday, especially my latin partner, i try my best to giv all my effort on tat competition, but y she can take it as nothing happen??Is tat my prob or her prob, i m keep tinking did i do the wrong thing!!

few months ago, she said tat her father doesn't let her dance until so late, ok, i can accept. yesterday, her father went to out station, and say tat she can practise until at night, but she didnt appreciate the time tat god given, after my latin teacher go bak at 8.45, she practise until 9. I said tat i dun 1 2 go bak 1st but she keep nagging me to fetch her bak, i said i giv u 5 bucks to take a cab back but she dun 1, y ppl are so selfish ?? only think of themself??

I hav reli no mood to continue to dance wit her, it is true, susposes today i m lazy to dance wit her, but wat to do all instructors ask me to practise wit her. I keep on off bit, no mood, keep quiet, but she still can talk wit me... besides tat, i didnt complain bout her b4 to my instructor but yesterday i reli stress up, wanted to quarrel wit her, but i refuse n just complain it to my instructor. Everytime practise, she didnt serious at all, but when there is a instructor outside, she will act serious. Haiz ppl is selfish....

by now i can make the conclusion, i hav wasted 80 bucks for the competition due to i hav no mood to dance ored, i hav waste another 100 bucks as my petrol to melaka, as the same reason.on the other hand i have to waste another 150 bucks for the hotel fee.

pls giv me some coments, should i go for the competition??

Mother's Day

Before I start my writing , i would like to wish all the beloved mother in the world
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY

Mother's day is on tmr which is another 40 minutes more, lets count down.......

Mothers are very special to all of us in the whole

RESTART EVERYTHING

Ya it's not a new blog, it's just a renewal of my blog.
I find out that my blog is damn boring, so i decided to delete everything and make it a better blog of mine.

As most of you know, i have decided to change my course.
I decided to study stpm, due to lots of the problem happen towards me.
After i read my fren (cash) blog, i found out that my life lacking of something which is colourful life,i found that my life is just white and black in colour all the while.
Thank you Cash for giving me some idea to increase or to colour my life as what most of them say.
I should learn more thing beside than study, dancing, i should try out something new always.
I should steps by and explore towards the land all around the world and not staying under a small house just looking at myself through a mirror without comparing other at outside.

Ya, I agree that life should be keep improving and not keepping it all the while in the stable line like the graph of velocity against time, a straight line, which mean a constant velocity, acceleration=0.
This is not what I want to be. May be I m fear of doing decision, lack of confident, and bla bla bla.
Thank again to cash, invited me to a property investment seminar, teaches me how to overcome fear.
Anyone interest to know that how to overcome fear, you are most welcome to ask me. No matter by sms, call, msn, leave comments, as long as i can get the message, i will reply.

Well, life is not as easy as how we think, it is not easy to drive a car if we don't learn it at all.
Share something with you all, i copy from cash blog, and he show me personally at my house too, I admit that I m going to cry when i watched tis video....



Nick Vujicic:

i will try 100 times to get up~

if i find fail 100 times to get up~

and i give up~

do u think i'm going to get back up!

NO!

but if i failed...

i keep try again, again, and again~

finally, i found my get up by the way like this!!